I sent a second email in reply to my bosses previous email, before I got a response. This would have spanned about a week. His last email talked about the company loosing money that month. Very far from a clear answer on my request for a pay raise though.
Keep in mind my execution of the request was very poor. I choked, and forgot the parts I had tried to prepare.I let my anxiety slow me down. And it is up to me to make sure that doesn’t happen again. I like my boss. I would even say he is funny. I just never really have a chance to socialize with any of my coworkers, and that just compounded with other stressers…
At one point I said “lets cut to the chase.” He replied, “if you want to cut to the chase go to Nathan.” Maybe that is a good idea. I have literally never said a word to him. I don’t really know what to say though. Maybe I will tell him about my dreams of starting a ice cream factory.
But more immediately, tomorrows meetings. I need to be convincing about my quick books integration. All that remains to be done is the User Interface. Then I will talk to Blake about a pay raise. I think I will start with a question. I will say, “you mentioned cv3 finance issues, how serious is it? Is loosing money the exception or the rule? Because whatever the challenge, their is always a way to win. And I will do everything I can to help CV3 win”
I think If I can get those words out, this could go well. There is so much uncertainty though. If CV3 is in trouble, I could ask for stock in the company. Or maybe it was just a bad month, or maybe just a stalling tactic. Anyway, if I had let it go, he certainly would not protest. I have to assert myself to get what I see as proper compensation for my work.